Dawn Breaking

My mind was awake before my body was aware that dawn was breaking. I stretched into my day, carefully … for I am no longer young. I could feel the light fighting against my window blind demanding entry and I checked the time.

I remembered that I had finally fallen asleep and I did it for the first time in a long long time … without the aid of a pill. I call that progress.

The road I travel will be all uphill. My journey must now consist of leaving the darkness … to walk in the light. This is a choice I make of my own free will but with much sorrow for the hopes that I must leave behind.

I live … I dream … I move forward into today. After a long absence I embrace with thankfulness my … “return to sanity.”

Today is a breakthrough … literally … with dawn's awakening.

Today I take on the full responsibility for the choices … wrongly made by me. I’m back! I am grateful for that one simple fact.

It does not stop the pain that haunts my days and fills my nights to overflowing. Time alone will heal all the hidden hurting places that no one else can see. Time and a belief once again … in me.

My search has just begun and spring is all around me. I will search for beauty and for truth. The journey will be taken with faith and courage and wisdom at my side … keeping me focused on a tomorrow of my … “own choosing.”

The past is GONE and I face a “NEW DAWN!”