The Seasons of My Life

The Seasons Of My Life

In the Spring of my Life when every breath was new and sight was clear but confused, I realized that I had arrived as new born.  The world was mine to explore and I had landed in the ”Land of I Love You.” Surrounded by Love, Handled with Love, Taught with Love, it became the Centre of my Being.  Not knowing anything but Love, I took my first steps into this amazing new Life, unfettered by anything but Joy.  What was there to Fear? I had no knowledge of Fear. No inkling of Tears or what would cause them. I had experienced no Pain.  These were things that I would encounter on the Journey I embarked upon and that Journey was unplanned.

 Step by gentle step I explored the World about me, the people that I met, the Beauty of Nature that called to me.  Bird Song and the Rustle of the Leaves and the Gentle Wind wrapped around me.  Fascinated I stretched into my world.  I was safe as I had always been. I walked in Faith working on the Premise that all those I met would be “similar to me.”  I Trusted.  I had no knowledge of Greed, Jealousy, Hunger, Anger, Desperation or Fear.  I believed that Man was Universally Good, that Hearts were filled with only Love, and Trust was every where.  I did not comprehend Hate , Control, Power. I slowly learned that these emotions turned Joy into Pain.  It was a Lesson that I wish I did not have to Learn. 

I kept my illusions for many years, through the Summer of my Life as I emerged as a teenager.  Looking back it was amazing to me that I did not see anything but what was in ”The Heart of Me.” I still believed that the World was a Beautiful, Magical, Unlimited Place which I could explore. 

In the Autumn of my Life, I fell in love, married and had three beautiful children.  They were all Miracles to me and through all the days of my Life thus far, I Believed that the World was Good.  It was misunderstood by some, but it remained Pure and Sparkling White, Unblemished.  I had Hope. Somewhere in this Season, the Colours of my world blended together and became unrecognizable and my Life was filled with Pain and Despair and I searched for Hope and found nothing there.  I was unprepared for the Finality that nearly Totaled me. I realized that I had been Wrong about so many things. It was then that I grew up.  As I searched for the Faith that had always sustained me and reached for the Hope that was Vital to me, I crawled out from under the Pain that was holding me down … and grew Strong. What else could I do. While searching for the Heart of Me…I Breathed.  I had Survived and would bring my Family with me.

I was now Aware of just how Scary life could be. I was prepared.  With the best of intentions, I Soldiered on. In the Winter of my Life with a Mind filled with Knowledge and the Soul of a Trooper, holding on to my Heart, I stepped Stronger than ever into this last stage of my Life.  I had Grown and been Taught many Lessons and Gained Wisdom.  I was no longer the young girl, carefree and happy.  I was a woman grown with Children and Grandchildren of my own,.  Each one Precious to me. 

It has been brought to my attention that perhaps all the years of Learning and Growth and Living have no real meaning to some of those we will soon leave behind. I Believe that the Young and Beautiful , Intelligent and Strong may tend not to appreciate the Wisdom of Older and  Aged  and Wrinkled and Frail and Failing.  This Saddens me and yet I know from Experience that each of us

must find our own way and make our own paths.  It is after all their Journey. Remember Always “Life is a Gift. “          smc